Today is Ashlyn's first birthday. I don't know what more to say. She is still gone. Nothing has made this easier or okay. I miss her so much. I have no new pregnancy or baby to fill my aching heart. My son is hurting. My husband is hurting. I am hurting. Today instead of making a pretty cake for a laughing happy little girl, I made a cake for an angel. Instead of buying presents and singing happy birthday, we lit the candle which burned at her funeral. I want to hold her and see her little smile but I can't. Instead of being a happy day full of hope it was a day of sorrow for all that we have lost. Happy Birthday Baby. We love you so much.
Friday, January 13, 2012
Happy Birthday Baby
Today is Ashlyn's first birthday. I don't know what more to say. She is still gone. Nothing has made this easier or okay. I miss her so much. I have no new pregnancy or baby to fill my aching heart. My son is hurting. My husband is hurting. I am hurting. Today instead of making a pretty cake for a laughing happy little girl, I made a cake for an angel. Instead of buying presents and singing happy birthday, we lit the candle which burned at her funeral. I want to hold her and see her little smile but I can't. Instead of being a happy day full of hope it was a day of sorrow for all that we have lost. Happy Birthday Baby. We love you so much.
